Change: Renovation of my heart

I've always liked the change I could create, but despised the change that controlled me.

This summer, the latter change and I have become quite close.

Much closer than I could have ever imagined, actually.

I like consistency. I like knowing. I like being safe. I like being in control.

That's humans, I suppose. However, sometimes I get SO comfortable thinking I'm in control, it comes as a shock to me when I realize I'm not. 

Someone once told my mother that, change = improvement.  While I have some small disagreements with that, for the most part I find it to be true. Maybe the situation which I am moving into isn't an upgrade, but I am improving as a person because of the experience change gives me.  Change allows me to relate with others, and pulls down the barriers of comfort I have created around my self.

Imagine a group of miniature construction builders standing in the vessels of your heart; they are on the job of renovating your heart. They are pulling down sections you've been living in, and hammering in new sturdy steps and creating new fresh hallways. 

Of course, during the renovation - your heart is not on some type of holiday! The hammers hurt and pulling down the old walls creates a bit of a mess.  Even looking at the "construction zone"can be flustering, and is sure to give you some type of doubts.

But, once the renovation is done, once the change is done; everything is higher quality, stronger.

During my summer of frequent transitions, I'm constantly led back to God's word in Jerimiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

There is so much beauty in that.

Through change my heart slightly breaks, so eventually it may love deeper.  

xo Angie